Did he love me? I have thought about this. I can tell you this, it wasn’t a true love or an agape love. It was a controlling, threatening love. God was never a love child. God never said, ‘I love you so much that I will set you free. If you return to me fine, if not I will miss you and wish you all the best.’ No, God said, ‘I will do whatever I will to you and if you leave me I will imprison you forever in Hell.’ What a scary guy. If this is love then I don’t need it or want it. (via laronje)